Warning... widow rant coming...
Everyone always says that I'm so strong... but I wish I were stronger. Maybe it is because Brian died which threw me into a life I wasn't prepared for, or maybe it is just who I am, but I am so easily hurt. I wish I could just brush it off, but often I can't. I find it hard to trust, but once I do there is no going back and it rocks my world when I feel that the trust has been broken. I miss that feeling of security that my husband provided... I miss knowing that no matter WHAT happened he would always be there. I hate days like this... the ones where all I do is cry and feel completely alone... it's a bad widow day...
