I walked into my room and the song playing on the radio was Nicklebacks "Far Away" and that song ALWAYS makes me cry. The lyrics of this song cut deep and grab my heart.
Some think that because I have a new love in my life that instances like hearing a song shouldn't affect me the way it does. I will be the first to tell you that new love does not replace the old, it does not replace the loss. It is an amazing addition to my life and it is clear that the ability to love another so completely is a natural thing.
New love though does not take away all of the widow moments. Thankfully I have a man in my life that is not threatened by my love for Brian. I have a man that holds me through my tears and even cries with me sometimes. This morning while that song played he held me tight....he loved me through the moment.
Later this afternoon, while I was out and about, another song came on the radio. This one is also one that grabs my heart, because it is the song that Victor sent to me one day. It is the song that he says portrays exactly how he feels about me and about us, Jason Mraz "I won't Give Up".
This time, instead of tears I smiled and I thought about how lucky I am to have had the love of not one, but two wonderful men in my life. How I am so thankful to have the chance to love and be loved again. I thought about how while I am and will always be Brian's widow, I now have a new title....Vic's girl...and I love that....
